Playtime

Killian is still sleeping a lot of the time, but he is having a few periods each day where he is really awake and we can start to have some playtime.  Up until this point, by the time I got him up from a nap and did the whole changing and feeding process, he was getting tired again.  The girls have enjoyed his time in the bouncy while we play and I think he has enjoyed his floor time to kick around.

Having a "conversation" of sticking out tongues with me.  If we start and I turn my eyes away now, he'll make a noise to get my attention and slowly stick his tongue out at me with a little smirk.

He still loves to raise his eyebrow.  Sadly though, the forehead wrinkles have been displaced by all the chubs.  I do love chubby babies, but I also loved his old man face!

Not bad for 7 weeks!

Love you forever

 A friend of mine gave me all her "boy" books shortly after Killian was born.  In that stack of books was this one.

She wisely told this 2 week post-partum mom not to read it.  I put all the books away in his room and thought nothing of it.  The girls found the stack of books today as they played in his room while I nursed and we had to read them (even though most are board books).  When we got to this one, I was confused why she told me not to read it.  The refrain is sweet:

I'll love you forever.
I'll like you for always.
As long as I'm living,
My baby you'll be.

And the story gets a little bit absurd as the mom drives across town and crawls through her grown son's window to sing to him.  When we got to that part, I realized that there was still about half the book left.  The next part is the mom calling the son to tell him she is very old and sick and that he should come see her.  Then she can't say the whole refrain to him.  Then he is holding her saying it to her and ending it with "My mommy you'll be."

Well, as soon as I realized his mom was dying, I started to tear up.  No way were the girls going to let me not finish so I tried to control my voice to keep from crying.  Keeley looks up and says, "What's wrong with your voice?  Let me get you some water."  She went and got some, came back and then looked at my eyes and said, "What's happening to your eyes?"  I fought through it and then actually started to cry, at which point she looked up and said, "Mom, why are you crying?  It isn't real.  You know it isn't real."  Maybe not to her, but it certainly is to me.  Perhaps that book will disappear for a while.

Update:  Keeley requested it so emphatically tonight that I gave in and went to find it from its hiding place.   When I found it and showed it to her she said, "Now, don't cry this time."  When I did, she said, "Mom, stop.  You can't read this book anymore because you keep crying.  Only Daddy can read it.  And don't read it to Killian either."  Fine by me!!