Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Last Day

Well, today was Keeley's last day as an only child. I had such great plans in my mind for really enjoying the day and having some special time with her. She, however, had a different plan in mind. Starting at 5:47 when she woke up, she was exceptionally grumpy bordering on inconsolable. I actually took her to the doctor because she was SO clingy and cried SO hard any time I put her down. I thought that she surely had an ear infection or something brewing that I needed to take care of before I was in the hospital.

At the doctor, she was all smiles. Same thing when Kelly got home. Nothing is wrong with her, aside from teething. Apparently, she was just putting on a show for Mom.

I guess, however, that is an accurate representation of our relationship :-) Maybe she just knows what is about to happen and needed to get all the attention she could before her world is turned upside down...

Monday, May 26, 2008

More Oma

Today, Mom came over to help me work on the nursery linens. Yes, I know that Kayden will be here in less than 48 hours. Unfortunately, I really have no excuse as to the lack of completion because I was only left with one piece that I had to do. When I went on bed rest that weekend, my mother in law came over and took all but the bed skirt home to do for me. She finished the bumpers, the crib sheets, the pillow, and is currently working on the quilt. It is all adorable. The only thing left to do now is the bed skirt and the flowers for the bumpers. It will get done...

Anyway, Mom came over for a few hours to help me since I am new to sewing. When she left, Keeley kept reaching for her. My mom carried her all the way to the porch and then handed her over to me. I tried to get Keeley to wave good bye to her Oma but Keeley just kept signing "more" and reaching out for Mom. Mom came and got her for a second, gave her a kiss, and then handed her back to me. Keeley immediately begin to sign "more" again. Mom waved good bye and then got in her car. At this point, Keeley made a very sad, very ugly face and whimpered like she was going to start crying! I couldn't believe it! I was holding her - Mom, her favorite person in the whole world right now and she was sad because Oma was leaving.

When it was clear that Oma really was leaving, Keeley said "down". I set her down and she started to walk toward Oma in her car and wave good bye. It was a very bittersweet moment for me. I thought I had more days as the number one love of her life!

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Baby? bench? jungle gym?

Keeley seems to be a bit confused. She loves to lift my shirt up and kiss Kayden while smiling up at me. However, she also thinks that if I'm laying on my side, my belly (which is quite large) serves as a great bench - upon which she can bounce as well as sit.This is not quite so comfortable for me ;-) Lately, she has also decided that the best exercise for her is to scale my tummy while I'm laying down on my side and climb behind me and then back to the front - over and over again. This is also not quite so comfortable and Kayden frequently protests! It will be interesting to see what she makes of my belly once Kayden is actually here.

Monday, May 19, 2008

Just kidding!

Well, apparently Kayden decided to turn around and be positioned the way she is supposed to be. The doctor confirmed, however, that I am huge and it is likely because I'm carrying a very large baby. They estimated that she is already 8 lbs 6 oz. I know that the further along you are the less accurate their measurements are. However, my belly is measuring at 40 weeks (instead of the 38 that I am) and the ultrasound showed a lot of fluid. She said that big babies make a lot of fluid. Also, she said again that second babies tend to be larger than the first ones. Keeley was 8lb 10oz. So, chances are, that 8lb 6 oz estimate might be fairly accurate.

She told me that, at this stage of the game, babies tend to gain about a half a pound a week. That would put Kayden at over 9 lb 6 oz on the scheduled induction date of June 4th. I am not interested in that (plus it is more likely that I would end up in a c-section anyway if she is that huge). I'm going to induce next week sometime if I haven't already had her by then. Just waiting on the nurse to tell me when it is scheduled.

Sweet Girl

Keeley is starting to realize that something is definitely going on with my tummy. As I mentioned in my previous post, my tummy is a little large. Keeley and I have been talking about the fact that Baby Kayden is in there. In fact, if you ask her where Baby Kayden is, she will either pat her tummy or mine. Recently however, she has decided that she needs to see where the baby actually is. She likes to pull up my shirt and pull down the panel on my pants so she can see just tummy. She will then pat my tummy and smile or give it big kisses. At first, she did this just at home. The last week or so though, she's decided that everyone needs to see my tummy exposed. She will do it at Little Gym, restaurants, the grocery store...you name it. Consequently, lots of people have been fortunate enough to see my big tummy - stretch marks and all!

Here are some of the cute pictures my mom got of her this weekend.

Here she is sitting in her tunnel. Do you like her ensemble? She has on her pajama top only, a hat, and is working on shoes. I am confident that I will have little to say soon on what she wears at all. Now, at least, I can usually pick the top and bottom before we go out in public. I'm afraid that time is quickly approaching its end!

Look at that smile!!!


Showing off her mouthful of goldfish. I know you are all jealous that she has goldfish. :-)

Relaxing on the pillow with her snack trap. She thinks the snack trap is the best thing ever and that she is so special for getting to use it. This picture does make me a little sad though because I think she looks awfully grown up and I'm not quite ready for that.

Here she is pushing my exercise ball around the back yard. She is obsessed with that thing.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Please

In an effort to teach Keeley good manners, we have taught her to sign "please". It is so very cute. She doesn't do it when she asks for something yet, but if you ask her to say please, she will do it with a huge grin on her face.

This morning, she made her sign that indicates she's tired. I say her sign because she completely made it up. We know it means she is tired and she will NOT go to sleep unless she does that sign. However, sometimes she'll do the sign and still not go to sleep. Oh well, baby steps. Anyway, today, she made the sign and I asked if she wanted a sleepy time. She looked at me with all seriousness and signed "please". I cannot tell you how happy I was! Maybe, just maybe, I thought to myself, I will stop having to guess when she might go to sleep.

I was wrong. Forty five minutes of playing and talking to herself resulted in pacifier throwing and calls for me to come get her up - no sleep. Oh well. It was still really cute and maybe we are working in the right direction. I've decided not to stress about it because, as Mom pointed out, life is about to get turned upside down for Keeley once Kayden arrives.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Independent like her big sister

Apparently, I have independent minded (and not always cooperative!) children. I learned today at my baby check up that Kayden decided between last week and this week that she no longer wanted to be head down. She is now breech. How she even turned around in there at this point baffles me.

I have to have an ultrasound on Monday to confirm this. If she remains in this position, we have to schedule a c-section for week 39 (two weeks from now). Thinking for yourself is a good thing. I'm just not sure I'm terribly fond of it if it requires me to have surgery!

Ice Cream Meltdown

I just gave Keeley two tiny bites of my ice cream. When I put it back in the freezer, she signed for more. I told her "no". She immediately squatted down and started to cry hard, angry tears. Oh me. I really thought that it was called terrible TWOs for a reason! She's only 14 months.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Control Freak

I am perpetually confused as to how my daughter does not like a schedule. Her mother is so fond of them, you'd think that fondness would pass on to her daughter. It has not. Keeley went down at 7 last night and woke up at 7:30 today. That would have been great except that she was awake a good portion of the 3 o'clock hour. Stupid, stupid teeth. The only blessing in this FOREVER long process with the teeth is that she only has 6 more that she has to get. She is working on her last two molars and bottom two canines. So, I think we just have the top two canines and her two year molars. 14 down and 6 to go, definite progress.

Anyway, her late wake up time (for her at least) caused a short morning nap (about 30 minutes). And now she has been napping for 2 hours this afternoon - much longer than normal. I am supremely thankful she is sleeping because I know she is miserable with these teeth and she needs the sleep. It is just so hard to have any sort of plan for life when you never know what the schedule might be.

I also realize that in the midst of all this sleep interrupting teething, we will be dropping one of our naps and moving to just one. I've heard this is quite a process. It will be interesting to see how Keeley handles it. Yesterday, she woke up after 11 hours of sleep at 6:30 and took her first 45 minute nap after 4 hours of being awake. Today, she woke up after 12.5 hours of sleep and took her first 30 minute nap after having been awake for just at 2 hours. I see no sort of correlation between the timing of those two days.

Becoming a mother has taught me many things about life and about myself. I think the most important one so far is that I am not in charge - of anything. I cannot control when she eats or sleeps. I cannot control what she chooses to eat. I cannot even predict how she might react to certain situations. I cannot assume that just because she has been sleeping for 12 hours straight every night that she will tonight.

These are hard lessons for someone that is very used to having life very well mapped out. I thought that because I viewed scheduling as important for myself and for a child, that we would have a schedule. This schedule would be one that I determined based on observing said child and figuring out what was best for her.

This is, apparently, not how being a mom works. I've realized it is my job to do the best I can to provide a healthy and safe environment for her but that I can't make her do anything. It is a humbling experience to spend your days with a little one who is so strong willed and independent minded. Each time my mom tells me that Keeley is a lot like I was as a child, I feel as though I should apologize and thank her all over again.

In the midst of this lack of schedule and constant ugly face at the foods I give Keeley to eat, I keep reminding myself that she WILL eventually have some sort of schedule and she WILL eat more than fruit, cheese, oatmeal, bread, milk, and frozen peas at some point in her life. Unfortunately for the control freak that is her mother, she controls the timing on all of that.

Mother's Day Weekend

We had a WONDERFUL Mother's Day weekend. We were able to spend time with both of our moms and I got to enjoy it as well. These are some of my favorite shots.

We went to Peter Piper Pizza with Kelly's mom because Keeley and I went last week with some friends and she had lots of fun. She was much clingier this weekend and didn't have quite as much fun, but she did enjoy her time there.

This wall was her favorite thing - outside of the balls for skee ball and the basketball game. She was terrified of the carousel she loved last time. Even walking past it caused her to make the ugly face, wave her arms, and sound off in protest. Oh well.


After pizza, Grandma came over to the house and she and Keeley played a lot with Keeley's drum set. Keeley enjoyed putting all the toys in it and then trying to get the lid to snap on. Then she decided it might be more fun to wear the drum as a helmet. Look at the face she's making !

She also enjoyed a game of peek-a-boo and chase with Grandma. I love this picture of her trying to look around the counter into the living room to see if Grandma is still there. When she saw Grandma, she squealed and then ran into the kitchen.
Later that day, she decided that she needed to show her Oma that she could climb completely inside the drum. Clearly, that is the purpose for which it was designed.

She also enjoyed her first whole banana with Oma. I have to admit she looks more like a monkey in this picture. Mom said that she ate it like a popsicle.
Such a sweet little girl! I hope all the moms out there had a great Mother's Day!

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Sharing

I think this is a sign of bad things to come. Keeley gets really irritated with Kelly if he comes up and rubs my shoulders or gives me a hug. She gets really angry if I am holding her and we try to have a family hug. She makes the ugly face, whines, and tries to push him away. I thought maybe it was just a quick phase but it has now been happening for over a week. Poor baby Kayden. She is coming into a family that feels there should only be one star!

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Keeley Love

I love my daughter, I really and truly do.

Here are some of my favorites right now:
1. how she whispers "dada" and looks at me like she's sharing a secret when she hears Kelly come home. And then how she goes as fast as she can to the door and squeals when she sees him.
2. her recent fascination with cuddling with me - so sweet
3. the big, wet kisses she gives
4. how she says, so deliberately and seriously, "up" when she is screaming at my feet with her arms raised and I tell her to use her words
5. her fascination with dressing up
6. her sweet smile
7. this face! What's not to love?8. her determination to do everything by herself
9. how she likes to lift up my shirt and pat my tummy when I ask where baby Kayden is
10. how she carries around stuffed animals under her arms
11. how she lays flat on the floor to look under the bed or crib for any toys or pacifiers
12. how she tries to make Carbo wear her hats
13. how she squeals and runs away when you chase her

Things I do not love right now:
1. lack of sleep
2. the grumpiness that lack of sleep causes in my otherwise adorable little girl.

You see, the list of things I don't love is really quite short. However, it often overpowers the other list by the end of the day and first thing in the morning.

For an entire week now, Keeley has been waking up before 6. THIS MUST STOP. Usually, it is around 5:15 or 5:30. Yesterday it was 5:55. Today, 4:45. The most special thing about it is that she wakes up exceptionally grumpy but refuses to go back to sleep. Also, she still naps for a maximum of 2 hours (usually more like an hour and a half). So, if you do the math, waking up at 5:30 (on average) and taking a maximum of 2 hours of naps a day isn't going to allow a toddler to stay happy very late into the evening. And, if you think about it further, a mom that woke up at 5:30 and is pregnant (thus needing more sleep) doesn't have a ton of patience at the end of the day to deal with said grumpy toddler.

We've been trying to move her bedtime up thinking maybe she is waking up because she is overtired. This whole problem started one night when she got too tired so it seemed logical to us that moving her bedtime up might help. However, I quit. If she is only going to sleep around 11 hours at night, wake up grumpy, and not nap, I'd rather all that nonsense start at a more reasonable hour for me. Fortunately, it is easy for me to make this decision today because I have to leave the house around 6 so Kelly will have to deal with super grumpy Keeley. I only hope that she allows him to watch his hockey game. Hopefully, keeping her up late (or at least her normal bedtime of 7) will make wake-up start at 6:30. Even better, maybe it will make her go back to those blissful times a few weeks ago when she woke up at 7:15 or 7:20.

Here are some suggestions I'm sure my helpful readers are thinking:

1. Let her cry some of you may be saying. She's still tired and she needs to realize that it is not time to wake up. You people have clearly never spent time with my daughter. She does not go to sleep when crying and that will only make me even more unhappy when I finally get up and go to her.
2. Rock with her in her room so you can both get more sleep. She rocks for about 2 minutes and then Kayden gets the hiccups or starts kicking which distracts her OR she realizes that she can bounce on my legs and starts to say "ball" and "dog"
3. Bring her to bed with you. Problematic for several reasons - the dogs sleep in our room which is a huge distraction to her, Kelly wakes up before 6 to start getting ready for work which wakes her up, and finally, she likes to flop around in bed more than cuddle.

People keep telling me I will look back on these days and smile. I do not believe these people. People also keep telling me that Kayden will be easier. I do not like these people as I feel they are jinxing us.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Too tired

Keeley has not gotten less entertaining, I have simply had less energy to report on the cuteness of our little one. This is because:

1. I'm very pregnant and it is getting hot. Yes, I realize that to non-pregnant people 80 degree highs is not hot. However, to someone that is 9 months pregnant (that's right...pregnancy is really 10 months) and frequently has a 14 month old daughter on her hip, 80 degrees is RIDICULOUSLY hot. I don't know how people survive the summer pregnant.

2. Keeley has decided that she needs a maximum of 1.5 hours of sleep during the day. No problem - except for the fact that she is waking up at 6 at the latest. This morning in fact, she woke up at 4:58. I opened my eyes and looked in the room to see much darkness. Kelly looked at his clock and simply said "no." I think that sums things up. Fortunately, I think it is just teething and she is generally happy during the day. The 1.5 hours of napping wouldn't be an issue except for the fact that I need more than that during the day (especially since I'm up every hour during the night because there is no room in my body for my bladder.)

I digress. I meant to tell you how cute my daughter is.

This is what she did last week while I was drying my hair. Notice her style with Kelly's hat and her pajamas. In case you can't see it all, she has a hat, a pull toy, her stuffed animal, and 3 of my shoes in the shower. Quite an assortment.

Later that day I was putting on my make-up and she did this. Why and exercise ball belongs in the shower I don't know. She moved it from the living room all the way into the shower. She is bouncing on a stuffed animal.
This is her claiming her infant car seat. I kept telling her Kayden was going to use it, she kept getting in it and giving me the stare down.

And this, my friends and family, truly shows her style. We were cleaning out the toy bins in the living room and she found her accessories. She has on that head band, two necklaces, and a boa. She is also carrying a cell phone and a play compact. She is all girl.
(The bags under her eyes are courtesy of the 4:58 wake up time.)